I didn't fast yesterday, after the events of Monday, I thought it was best I had a clear mind. But I still feel very shocked at what happened. C and myself are still not on speaking terms, but N seems to be getting over it, she was her giggly self today and ofcourse I have been showering her with love, as she so rightly deserves.
But when I feel down, I always seem to turn to food, infact chocolate. I don't know what it is with chocolate, I have been known to binge on it, but I did head off the tescos and bought myself a chocolate muffin and a bar (a big bar) of chocolate. I then felt guilty, mostly because as N is now 6 months, I need to loose the pregnancy weight and get back into my normal (not maternity) clothes. So I skipped dinner and breakfast and lunch to compensate, and havne't touched the stuff since!! I used to keep myself very fit and trim when I was a student, I was known around town as the "scarfie jogger" I would just jog around town in my headscarf and baggy clothes, but C promptly put an end to that, like many things I enjoyed pre marriage. I think he was getting worried that I was fitter than him, I did used to outrun him, and he didn't like that much. why does everything have to be a competition for him?
Good to know that your little girl is getting over the trauma of the other day , and that she's getting lots of loving attention from her mother if no one else ; I would'nt worry too much about the chocolate , unless you're seriously obese which I doubt , with all good wishes and kind regards , and thank you for your much appreciated online friendship , - martin .