After my last entry, I tried to figure out what I could do next. I tried to ball a couple of places and I finally got to speak to someone from an organisation called womens aid. I just briefly went over some of the things with C, the not being aloud to go out, the timed trips to the supermarket, the name calling, the suspicions over my fidelity. She said that he was an abuser, I am a victim of domestic abuse. That was quite hard to hear and quite hard to face up to, mostly because I feel that I am a strong woman and am in control of my life and career, and finally to be subjected to this, how could i let it happen. how could i let it go this far?
I tried to ask if there was anything I could do to take control of the situation, she said there is nothing i can do, he is an abuser. Its him who needs to change. And when asking what options I have, it was either I put up with it, or leave. Either way its hard.
I called the muslim womans network, who said exactly the same thing. So there is much I have to think about, not just for me but for N. And its not an easy decision either way.
