Men. Why is always a game of "trying to get one over you". I just don't understand it. I now know that C only does what he does to get back at me. However, I am now at a turntable, something quite worrying has happened and I am praying its only innocent.

N has had a fever the last three days, its the first time shes had this, but its probably something she picked up from the other kids at the mother and baby group. C of course, blames me, says its all my fault shes ill, my cooking he put it down to. Oh and my lack of hygeine. I must add, I am a scientist, I think I know more about microbes than him, and guess what C, germs don't jump up at you.

In anycase, today, or this morning, N came up with a rash, all over her body and face and ears. So first thing I called the GP. C then woke up, saw her like that and announced hes taking her to the hospital. he asked me to change her, I did, and I handed her to him, whilst I jump into the shower and get ready. What did C do, he went off without me. They have been gone now for 2 hours, not sure why he did that. What really upsets me more, is that he took no food, no nappies, no change of clothes, no drink/milk, not even her teddy or dummy. I am just praying shes ok as it is time for her to have some food. I called my dad (who is a doctor) and he was very annoyed that he took her to A&E, especially as this service is for emergencies and that is not an emergency. The GP would have been far better as GPs come across all these things very regularly. I tried to call, hes not answering the phone.

Now the devil is whispering in my ear, perhaps hes carried out his threat of taking her away from me? I checked, I still have her passport and have moved it to an even safer place. He wouldn't really do that would he? he is a bit pyscho, but I am not sure whether I should pick up the phone and call the police just yet, perhaps I will call the hospital first and see whats going on. Will keep you all updated