Its been a hard night. A night filled with guilt, sorrow, regret, upset, anger, heart break. After filling in my blog, I called the police station and the duty officer said that they are keeping him only for a few hours. But they scared him a little, handcuffs, photos, fingerprints, DNA samples, and he seemed to be deeply in shock and sorrow. He needed to know he could not do what he did and that they would call me once hes been released.

I felt better hearing that, I was worried he would be angry and that would be scary for me. At about 1am, he turned up (the police did call) and he just brushed his teeth and went to sleep. That surprised me. I didn't think that he would return at all.

In the morning, he got up dressed showered had some breakfast and packed a small bag and left. I tried to talk to him, as we needed to sort things out. He ignored me. I humililated him, and he would be so angry. But what really left me heart broken was N. Seeing her father in the morning she ran up to him. He just ignored her and went about his tasks. Why take it out on her? I would never stop her from seeing her father, but obviously he doesn't see it that way. She didn't really know what was going on, but I was left to cycle to work with N behind me. She seemed ok, I'd have to wait from the report from the nursery to see how she is. I think its good hes gone for a little while, we need time apart to work out whats going on. And what to do next. Whether its all over. Or will things change. But I know deep down. Nothing will change, and it may be the end once and for all.